So after what I’ve been through with my skin this year I thought it was important I share my story with many of you who may have suffered or are suffering with acne.

I was completely shocked at how my skin quickly turned for the worst when I started university this year at 19. It’s funny because most people  say that your spots are just a ‘teenage’ hormonal problem that will go away eventually but for many that’s not the case. I had perfect skin throughout most of my teenage years, and I only broke out with cystic acne when I eventually left school.

After trying a few different drugs to cure my acne, I went to the doctors around November time and managed to get prescribed accutane. It’s a very ‘hard’ drug as they say, with severe side effects that are not to be taken lightly. One of the most well known are it’s correlation with depression and a few cases of suicide. However, I was very lucky in the fact it didn’t effect my mental health. The only thing that did make me obviously upset and unhappy with the way I looked and felt was my skin. I was on the drug for 6 months before my skin cleared and honestly it was the worst 6 months of my life.

I took pictures all the way through so I could keep track of whether it was actually improving or not.

So this is my bare faced skin while travelling in July 2016 – as you can see it’s perfectly clear.

This angle really isn’t the one. But I never expected to be posting this 🙃 but as you can see I started to get a few spots after being home. From travelling in September 2016.

In November – This was really horrible because, I had just started uni and I was meeting all new people and as shallow as it sounds all I could think about was trying to hide my face and how ugly they must think I am with the state of my skin. It just got worse and worse 🙄 it started all over my forehead and this was the point where I was desperate for anything to help my skin!

I regularly used face masks which helped a LOT. This one pulled out all my impurities and got rid of any oil on my skins surface.

After a month of being on accutane (December 2016) my skin was at its very worst. The spots were itchy and under the skin so not even poppable. One of the big downsides to the drug is that it does really flare your skin up in the first 1-3 months and for me it got so much worse.

I started to really see the side effects of the drug by January. The drug drys you from inside out, I was suffering with extremely dry eyes to the point that they would stick together when I sleep and I’d struggle to open them in the morning. I visited the opticians so many times but they just didn’t  improve and are still very dry now. I couldn’t even wear contacts for the 6 months I was on it. My arms completely dried out too and I had to lather Vaseline on them each night to keep them soft.

After all the horrible side effects and spots it did start to go down by about may time. But I was left with these horrible scars that look just as bad as the spots themselves😤

I’ve started using a few different products to help my scars fade and I’m finally noticing the difference. THANK THE LORD 🙏🏼 and this is my skin now… (the sun helped a lot too)  But the aim of this blog post is just for all you girls (and boys) suffering with acne is to know that there IS ALWAYS a solution to your skin and it won’t be bad forever!😽 make sure you see a doctor if you are suffering with acne and make sure you choose the right skincare to look after your needs!

If anyone wants to know what I use on my skin now to keep the scars away! Please message me I’m happy to help ♥️



  1. Lo
    July 21, 2017 / 6:02 pm

    Your so brace sharing this and showing girls and boys that everyone and anyone can suffer their skin. Really interested to know what products you use for scaring thou as your results are amazing! X

    • indialilymj
      July 21, 2017 / 8:17 pm

      Hey Lo!! Thanks so much, I was so nervous to post it but I’m sooo glad I did as I’ve had so many boys and girls messaging me thanking them! ♥️ please e-mail me at so I can tell you more about products I use xxx

  2. Ellie
    July 21, 2017 / 6:52 pm

    ❤️ Struggling with acne is the worst.. sharing this is so helpful actually funnily enough one of the first things I noticed when I followed you on insta was your even skin tone when not wearing makeup in your holiday pics and how envious I was! Would never have thought you struggled with acne. Your skin looks amazing now.

    • indialilymj
      July 21, 2017 / 8:16 pm

      Thanks ellie!! Aw no way, my skin used to be so much better, and I always see girls posting pictures with amazing skin and I just think never you know whether they may have suffered acne in the past ♥️ I’m glad this helped you lovely xxx

  3. Leah tod
    July 21, 2017 / 8:04 pm

    Hi what did you use to get rid of your acne scars? Please HELP😭😭

    • indialilymj
      July 21, 2017 / 8:14 pm

      Hi leah – please email me on ♥️ I will tell you all the details of what I use xxx

      • Leah
        July 21, 2017 / 9:11 pm

        Okay thanks, I have emailed you xx

        • Leah tod
          July 22, 2017 / 1:05 pm

          Hi I’ve emailed you but haven’t got a reply xx

          • indialilymj
            July 24, 2017 / 12:23 am

            Hi Leah, I’m sorry if I haven’t replied yet I’m slowly making my way through I’ve had a lot of lovely messages and emails xx

  4. Florence
    July 22, 2017 / 10:42 am

    I’m currently on accutane now (only 1 month in so skin is at the bad end of the scale) what skincare did you use? I think mine is too strong for how sensitive my skin has become

  5. Georgia
    July 22, 2017 / 12:32 pm

    Sharing your story is helping a lot of other girls going through the same thing ❤️ Thank you for helping & sharing the products you use to help x

  6. Nicole
    July 22, 2017 / 7:28 pm


    I’m still on accutane. I’ve got one month left. My experience was really good the only side effect I had was dry lips and sometimes dry elbows. The skin clears out but left with scars so really wanna know what you used for the scars. I’m thinking after I finish to try the laser maybe will help.

    Thank you,

    • indialilymj
      July 24, 2017 / 12:23 am

      I’m glad you’ve had a great experience on accutane! Sounds better than mine haha. My skin isn’t perfect and I do still have small scars – but please email me xx

  7. Jasmine
    July 22, 2017 / 8:19 pm

    What are you using on your skin for the scars? Skin looks great! X

  8. S
    July 23, 2017 / 6:51 pm

    Hey girl, it is so brave of you to post about your acne journey. But, so very lovely to speak up about something we girls feel so ashamed of! When it is so normal. So go you! I had a blip with my skin too, I had acne all over my cheeks and forehead.

    Once cleared up with medication, I used a zinc spray for the scarring. Zinc is a mineral which boosts cell repair, so therefore helps fade any scars a lot faster. I used to go for chemical peels to get rid of the scars, as they can be so lowering of self esteem. But once discovering zinc, it has been holy grail. You can find pure zinc sprays online, or take supplements!


    • indialilymj
      July 24, 2017 / 12:21 am

      Thanks so much I will definitely try that lovely xxx

  9. El x
    July 23, 2017 / 8:40 pm

    I was informed on your Instagram post regarding your skin by a friend of mine. Once I started reading your blog I couldn’t believe how relatable this was to me. I’m so curious to know what products you are using on your scarring as I’ve been prescribed different gels and antibiotics for my skin and nothing has worked. It’s lasted for a year now and I hate wearing make up, yet find it difficult to make eye contact with people without it on and to not feel ugly.

    I really need to know what it is you use on your skin, because I have minimum spots yet the markings make it look as though my entire face is covered!

    El xxx

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